40 Day Self-Love Meditation
Day 1 – Still trying to center myself after my last relationship, I am going to start 40 days of self-loving. From p. 127 of my book “The Joy Experiment”, I am going to look at a picture of myself as a child every night for 30 minutes and send myself love and affection. I’ll let you know the results. 🙂
Day 3 of my Self-Love Meditation: holding my inner child for 30 minutes for 40 days. The practice of giving and receiving love is creating an ecstatic feeling in my body. My inner child is loving my holding her hand and telling her how valuable and wonderful she is. I can feel the difference in being met in my cells. This is revelatory. I recommend it.
Day 4 of 40 Day Self-Love Meditation: My inner five year old began to relax and let go of some of her tension and fear. She told me about several misbeliefs that were worrying her and we replaced them with more supportive beliefs. It was very revelatory. I look forward to the patterns changing within myself as a result of the change in belief.
Day 6 of 40 day Self-Love Meditation: Very sweet. My compassionate loving strong self holds the part of me that has been hurt in the past filling me with a warm, safe feeling and deep relaxation.
Day 8 of 30 minute Self-Loving Meditation (where my higher self gives attention and affection to parts of me that need love). Today my inner infant was happy, my two year old was joyful, my three and four year olds wanted to have a party and invite everyone…it was the adult me that needed some attention and compassion. So, I spent time loving her.
Day 9 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation (30 mins a day): I realize I can take these feelings of softening and affection into everything I do. I realize I feel grounded in my higher self. I realize more kind thoughts and compassionate feelings arise spontaneously for others as I deepen in love for myself.
Day 10 of 40 day Self-Love Meditation: took 10 minutes to connect to my higher self and had a slight resistance to the meditation. Once there, it felt right just to love my body. I spent 30 minutes gently appreciating all the parts of me – every limb, every muscle, every part. By the end, my body was vibrating with joy. A new kind of foreplay!
Day 11 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation. My first attempt turned into a gestalt with my ankle (still healing) so I tried again later and experienced sweet delight as I loved my writing — my scripts, my book, my short stories. I needed that!
Day 12 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation: I thought it would get lighter and easier the more time I spent loving myself. However, this morning the energy was dense. My subconscious wanted my love. So, I spent my time holding my inner subconscious. My shadow side — rhymes with ‘stitch’ or ‘glitch’ or ‘witch.’ Afterwards, I felt neutral, but heavy. There might be more in there to love. I did a kundalini set and that lifted my energy.
Day 13 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation. While holding my sleeping infant self, I realized the underlying truth in the fairy tale Beauty and the Beast. The Beast is who we see when we look through the lens of our projections – the Beauty is who/what we see when we look with clarity and innocence — when we see the truth of who someone is.
Day 14 of my 40 Day Self-Love Meditation. I am sleeping more deeply. It’s cool.
Day 15 of 40 day Self-Love Meditation. My mind wanders to people I would like to send love to. I send them love and then gently come back to loving myself. I add on a few more minutes to the meditation to make up. Maybe the next 40 days I’ll do a Loving Others Meditation for half hour a day. (I know at heart level we are all one.)
Day 16 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation. Today I broke the rules (again). I felt like being held by something greater than myself so instead of sending love to an aspect of myself or my inner child at different ages, I let myself be cradled by the universe: held, loved and supported by the energy of love. Later I spontaneous sprinkled rose blossoms across my walkway.
Day 17 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation (30 minutes of sending light and love to myself). Today I made it past age five up to my teen years. I remembered a few things that I needed to forgive myself for and set free. As they say in Ho’oponopono, “I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.
Day 18 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation: seeing major shifts in my life and energy. Today’s meditation brought many fruits of creativity. Oh joy, more beautiful ideas to co-create and produce!
Day 19 of my 40 Day Self-Love Meditation: I found teenage parts of me that felt guilty about my sexuality. I reassured them that all was forgiven and that they did nothing wrong. My body leapt with joy at having let go of those misunderstandings. Now my actions and responses can come from love and not shame or guilt. Yay!
Day 20 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation. It changes everyday. Today I felt to give love to specific body parts by touching them with my hands. I also found myself breathing circularly – up the spine, down the front – rejuvenating the organs (through visualizing the breath and energy this way.) My body sparkled with attention.
Day 21 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation (30 minutes of love a day): I find that the practice of loving and comforting myself has strengthened my compassion so as soon as I am triggered, my compassion moves in to soothe me, like flexing a well toned muscle.
Day 22 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation. I can see and feel the changes. My outer life is reflecting them. Today I needed to clear some sorrow around giving and receiving ecstatic, deep and blissful loving. Watch out world, I’ve got some mighty love to give!
Day 23 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation. The love is sinking in. All the parts of me feel wrapped in warmth and affection. The challenge now is to be comfortable with this level of love, enjoyment and nurturing on a consistent basis. Let the delicious vibration be my natural state of being.
Day 24 of 40 of my Self-Love Meditation (30 minutes of hugging, loving and holding myself from my book The Joy Experiment). Slight progress backlash from my ecstatic state yesterday.
Day 26 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation (30 mins a day). Was playing with my dogs before the meditation and that helped to connect me to my loving, higher self. So, I entered the meditation loving and playful. I did loving affirmations on what I love about myself. I sent love to parts of my body. I thought about how self love could revolutionize our society by creating a new american dream. (I feel a blog coming on!)
Day 28 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation: I realize that self-love can be part of any action – going to the bathroom, driving in traffic, doing the dishes. One only needs the attention/intention to include it.
Day 29 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation (gazing at, loving and holding my inner child). Today I felt a vulnerable transition from the aspect who gives love to the inner being who receives it. I spent much of the time receiving being adored, receiving being lovable, receiving being valuable. I had to let go of all beliefs to the contrary. Slightly uncomfortable, at moments joyous.
Day 30 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation (The Joy Experiment, p. 137). Woke up in (rare) bad mood. Did breathwork and kundalini to release anger/negativity. Just did self-love meditation – hard to stay awake. It’s a process.
Day 31 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation. Today my awareness was on being magnificent. I praised myself several times. You are amazing. You are magnificent. I know many people think this is an ego based thought, but it actually connects one to their highest state of being. If I am amazing and magnificent think of how much more I can contribute to the world. Can you glimpse your own magnificence?
Day 32 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation (30 mins a day of love, affection and attention) on all aspects of me! Today took a little warming up and clearing. Once in a state of loving, the loving was sweet, warm and compassionate. Really needed. Felt safe, held, listened to and loved.
Day 33 of 40 Day Self-Love Meditation. Woke up feeling warm, loving and held by God. Thought my self-love meditation might be redundant with how full I was feeling. Did my practice and found plenty to love and nurture within myself. Then I sent some of the overflow of positive energy out to a part of the world that seemed to need it — ♥
Day 34 of my 40 day Self-Love meditation. Today my loving went from infancy to teenager and all the darling, sweet ages in between. I also sent love to my scripts and was loved by my lovely, radiant future self. I’m thinking I might extend the meditation practice longer than 40 days..maybe 90!
Day 35 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation. Today I visualized opening to love and received from the universe. On the inhale, I imagined love coming into my cells and organs on the exhale I let go of anything I no longer needed. Very uplifting and clearing.
Day 36 of my 40 day Self-Love meditation: I spent time loving that part of me that feels challenged in relationships. She appreciated it and I could feel her melting and letting in my love. I also identified and cleared some self-doubt and strengthened my belief in my ability to succeed. All in a half-hour!
Day 37 of my 40 Day Self-Love Meditation. As I loved myself today, I gave value to my being and my body vibrated with joy.
Day 38 of my 40 Day Self-Love Meditation: today I focused on loving the infant self – telling her she was safe and well cared for. Simultaneously, I relaxed into the bed, receiving the love and support from mother earth and my (visualized) parents. It felt very warm and comforting. I felt received and valued.
Day 39 of my 40 Day Self-Love Meditation: I am amazing. I am wonderful. I am thoughtful and caring. I am beautiful. I am sweet and wonderful. I am.
Day 40 of my 40 day Self-Love Meditation. Anti-climatic. Distracted. Loved the part of me that doesn’t want to be alone. Loved the part of me that doesn’t know how to accept others as they are. Loved the part of me that judges me for not being able to accept people in my intimate relationships as they are. I’ve made such strides and found so much more to love, I am probably going to extend to 90 days.